CategoryVermischtes

Buy or DIY

I bought this birthday card for my aunt:

Then I thought: No! And made this one:

Birthdays are a great opportunity to practice some collage skills. Want to do this more often. Who is the next one?

Vampires on the Train

Instead of listening to my current favourite travel music album (Roisin Murphy: Roisin Machine) I couldn’t resist secretly joining the two girls sitting in front of me watching an episode of The Vampire Diaries.

What I liked about them was the way they talked about the characters as if they were a part of their real lives, like boys and girls at school.

They seemed really connected to them.

Building a story

Today I did something I haven’t done for quite a while. Which is astonishing because it’s my profession and the thing I’m good at. And I had forgotten how much fun it is. Building a story in my head from the material I had collected. Using the words told to me by my interviewees. How to tell it in a way that is fun and human and joyful and maybe a little exciting and surprising. Want to do that more often again.

Disorganised but happy

Last year was a year of big decisions for me.

One of them was to give up my career as a self-employed PR journalist.

The problem with my decisions is that as soon as I make them they are done for me.

So I’m in that state of mind, but there are still all these unsexy things to do, like deregistering my business and doing all this admin stuff.

And then all of a sudden there comes a time when I think I should do this right now. And then it might be too late for something or I might not find a document I need.

Today was exactly that day. And I filled in all the documents and wasn’t sure about some things and hopefully, that won’t be to my disadvantage.

Even though I was self-employed for more than ten years, one constant was my disorganisation.

Nevertheless, it has now brought me to a place and state that feels completely right for me.

So I accept up to this point my disorganisation and just keep trying to be less so in the future. Who knows, maybe it will work someday.

Astonishing moment

Question for you:

What was the most astonishing moment for you today?

Mine was that:

After one of my colleagues showed her cute baby cat in our daily online team meeting, another colleague showed his beloved pet: a big-eyed black and white guinea pig. I had not expected that.

Let go of control

I really like this idea of surrender and letting go of control.

Found this quote by Henry Miller that sums up exactly this phenomenon:

When you surrender, the problem ceases to exist. Try to solve it, or conquer it, and you only set up more resistance. I am very certain now that… if I truly become what I wish to be, the burden will fall away. The most difficult thing to admit, and to realize with one’s whole being, is that you alone control nothing. To be able to put yourself in tune or rhythm with the forces beyond, which are the truly operative ones, that is the task — and the solution, if we can speak of “solutions.”

Henry Miller

This weekend: Calming, grounding, inspiring

Sunday morning walk (Foto: Carmen Radeck)

This weekend was particularly calming, grounding and inspiring.

Calming and grounding: Long walks in the morning and late afternoon with my partner and our dog in places we don’t often walk.

Grounding: We watched „Nomadland“ for the first time on Saturday. After watching the film, I felt a bit anxious, especially thinking about getting older and being alone.

Interestingly, this (Sunday) morning I read a quote by Gabor Maté:

„Safety is not a question of a lack of threat. Safety is the presence of connection.“

Gabor Maté

This let me think of my anxiety the night before. And of the importance of community and connection for the „nomads“ in the film and for people in general.

Aside from the anxiety, the film was grounding for me as it shows life stripped to the bone. It makes you think about the essential things in life and made me feel grateful for the life I have.

Inspiring: I love my weekend feed on my favourite feed reader „Feedly“. The Marginalian newsletter was particularly inspiring again with an article about evolutionary biologist Lynn Margulis and her book „Symbiotic Planet“.

Also inspiring was the BBC World Book Club podcast episode with Jennifer Egan about her book „A visit from the Goon Squad“, which I am currently re-reading. One of my favourite books ever.

The „Knowledge“ section in the German weekly newspaper „Die Zeit“ was also very inspiring, especially an article about the philosopher Rosi Braidotti and the concept of the posthuman. I was impressed by the idea of affirmative ethics. Interestingly, one of her quotes is „We are all nomads“.

I immediately ordered two books by her to dive deeper into the idea of the posthuman. There will also be an exhibition on this topic at Marta Herford Museum in June.

Walking when the sun goes down

Foto: Carmen Radeck

I love the mood and atmosphere of a walk between afternoon and evening right before the sun goes down.

It’s such a quieting feeling with the promise of coming home and rest.

If it’s not Covid, it’s this other thing

The funny thing since the pandemic is that whenever there is a conglomeration of random symptoms (which I don’t remember happening before Covid), my first reaction is to do a Covid test.

So I did this week and as usual it was negative.

As a woman of 48 now, I’m pretty sure of the real reasons…

And it reminded me of another unfinished thing from 2022: reading the excellent book by Sheila de Liz „Woman on fire“ about the strange adventure of perimenopause.

Reminder for my future self for the next few years: if it’s not Covid, it’s that other thing.